I'm sure you've heard about the Paolo Mallari incident from someone or the most, twitter since he was trending about two days ago. To all honestly, I was hesitating to write a blog post or even just a tweet or a facebook post about it considering that I've only said a few sentences to him and I only see him since he's the boyfriend of a kabarkada. But then again, I thought about it and that should be a reason alone for me to make one. I see him often, mostly in school since I spend some of my breaks with his girlfriend, Sasa and the occasional birthday parties of common friends. I think I've seen him more than some of the people I call close friends and yet I didn't even bother to say more than the usual "how are you?" or "whats new?" or "where's sasa?"
Thats what broke my heart the most when I visited the wake last night. Seeing him there wherein he seems like he was just sleeping, made me recall all the conversations we've had and I want to slap my face thinking WHY WHY didn't I bother? I've always thought that because he's Sasa's boyfriend, he'll just forever be there since it seems like they're the type of bf-gf wherein they'll get married, have babies and still be together till they're 90 years old. So everytime I have the opportunity to talk to him, I wont bother since I'll have next time. and now there isn't.
It sucks that we need a tragedy to happen to realize these things. Even for friends to get together. I saw faces last night that I haven't seen in forever. Gave hugs to people I haven't seen in forever. We make all of these opportunities pass since we think that we always have a NEXT TIME. What if there isn't? What if God only planned for us to enjoy the world for 20 or 21 or 22 years? Even to the youngins who are reading this blog post, what if God only planned 15 years for you to show people you love you love and care for them?
A passing of someone is always a wake up call for us to cherish the moments we have with people we love. That everyday, every hour and every minute is a chance for us to live life to fullest, achieve our dreams and most importantly to fulfill God's purpose for us here on earth - and I've always been reminded that at the end of the day, it is if we've shown the people who were assigned by God to love us and care for us, to return all of these and even alot more. It sucks that someone has to pass away but I guess, its all part of it.
RIP Pao. I don't know if you read my blog when you were still here on earth but I guess you can just hear everyone's thoughts about you there in heaven. You are loved and you will definitely be missed. Please take care of Sasa, watch over her and help her. We'll do what we can here.